"Just Being Me"

I haven’t written anything in a good while, Busy trying to live my ‘Best Life’ The more things change the more they stay the same, Since the death of my son Oct 2, 2014, My life changed, the way I treat people, my taste in music and taste in men..low tolerance for bullshit though, One Thing I’ve learned about life, it goes on.. no matter what may be going on in your life..Love the ones you can, touch the ones you can reach, Let the others go..I’m not who I use to be, physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually..I have my own personal relationship with God, By his Grace I’m able to carry on. Physically my body has some kinks with the changes women go through at a certain age..it’s like I want to be in a relationship but the person might not have what it takes emotionally, mood swings has it’s days and some days I want to leave well enough alone and stay single..right now no one is good enough..I had friends I use to talk to but I was kidding myself thinking I want to spend time w...

What Now? Ok In a few months we will have a new President. Ok and....He's not going to do anything to improve your life, So What Will You Do To Make Your own Life Better? What Are You waiting on? Do it Now.. I started reading again, Born a Crime, Trevor Noah very interesting and Hilarious, sad, South Africa History, I'm not finished yet But I will..A lot is going on These Days. I found out a lot during the election.. not much into politics, but this one was interesting,  A more Divide Country..We will have to sit back on this one..What I want To Know is How Are You Feeling?   What's on your Mind? Are You Mad? Sad? Happy? Just Say It..Because Some People is about as happy as they make up their minds to be...I will miss President Obama and First Family..Vice Pres Joe Biden who keeps it 💯.. They will always be my #1..Can We Rewind? Please!! Thanks !! What Do You Have To Say?

"UnCommon Me": Excuse.." Priorities" : Sitting Here Looking Out the Window, I'm thinking About How Many Excuses We Have For  Not doing What We Need To Be Doing. Some Peopl...

Sitting Here Looking Out the Window, I'm thinking About How Many Excuses We Have For  Not doing What We Need To Be Doing. Some People Have An Excuse For Everything, When You Call Them Out, They Will Get Offended, Well The Truth Does Not Change Because You Are Offended, Take Responsibility For Your Actions. At What Point Will You Grow Up?  Its Dangerous Enough That You Always Have Excuse For Everything, Every Decision, But When You Have Others Making Excuse For You That's Just Not Good, Some People Create Their Own Storm Then Get Upset When It Rains.. I Was Talking To Some One A week ago, I Ask Them Why Are You So Weird? They Said Genetics.. That Is The Poorest Excuse A Person Can Make.. God Excepts Us The Way We Are, But He Doesn't Want Us To Stay That Way, We Are Living In Different Times, Just Because Your Mother or Father did This, Doesn't Mean You Have To, That Can Stop With You, You Don't Have To Be Weird, Don't Go Down That Road.. I...

Sitting Here Thinking About How Life Can Just Throw You Off Track..Maybe The Journey Isn't About Becoming Anything, Maybe It's About Unbecoming Everything That Isn't Really You.. So You Can Be Who You Were Meant To Be In The First Place.. That's Really It. Never In My Wildest Dreams  Did I Ever Once Think I Would Lose A Child..God Put People In My Life To Prepare Me, I kept asking God Why Am I Getting The Idiots, Why Am I Entertaining These Type Of People, They weighed So much On My Emotions And I Had To See Them Everyday Really Kept Me In a Prayer, I Blamed It On My Hormones Changing, But They Were There For A Reason, Preparing Me For Ronnies Passing.. I Didn't Understand It Then, Confused That I would Allow Such Self  Absorbed, Pretending, With Complex Issues, And Most Definitely Played on My Emotions, I Wouldn't Have Given Them The Time Of Day!! Everybody Wears Masks, But The Greatest Act Of Courage Is To Be And Own All That You Are. Without apology. Witho...

12th grade 1978   So I've Heard That If You Can't Forgive and Forget, Pick One!! So I Chose To Forgive, But Forgetting Is Somewhat Difficult, As The Late Maya Angelou Said, I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel That is most certainly true.. Forgiveness is not about forgetting, it's about letting go of another's person throat.. It's a gift you give yourself. But it's always been easy for me to forgive a person because I didn't have to look in their faces everyday or they truly was sorry for what they did, but it gets difficult when the other individual don't seem to have any remorse or acting like they have done nothing.. And you watch them daily not saying a word.. True forgiveness is when you except an apology that you never got!! Some people will play on your emotions because they know that you care about them.. I just don't think you should ...

When I turned 40 yrs old (that was 13 years ago) just freshly out of a divorce, I want different!! So I promised myself that I wouldn't date anybody of "Color" Because in my mind and experience Black Men was taught to have this "I'm the Man of the House Mentality" its ok to wear the pants but just don't act like you are my father!! Because truly I want you to "Be the Man" Put me in my place when need be!! Slap me around a few times..lol lol (Just kidding about the last one don't even try that on  any day that ends in "Y") mmm hmm besides sending the Police you might wanna send an ambulance or the morgue..my fav line Sling blade..lol lol Just a few laughs to take me away from the seriousness of this topic. But during the time of Divorce Saga and how it played out, I wanted different, Its funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back Everything is different..When I told most of my friend that I crossed over for a wh...