"Just Being Me"

Sitting Here Thinking About How Life Can Just Throw You Off Track..Maybe The Journey Isn't About Becoming Anything, Maybe It's About Unbecoming Everything That Isn't Really You.. So You Can Be Who You Were Meant To Be In The First Place.. That's Really It. Never In My Wildest Dreams  Did I Ever Once Think I Would Lose A Child..God Put People In My Life To Prepare Me, I kept asking God Why Am I Getting The Idiots, Why Am I Entertaining These Type Of People, They weighed So much On My Emotions And I Had To See Them Everyday Really Kept Me In a Prayer, I Blamed It On My Hormones Changing, But They Were There For A Reason, Preparing Me For Ronnies Passing.. I Didn't Understand It Then, Confused That I would Allow Such Self  Absorbed, Pretending, With Complex Issues, And Most Definitely Played on My Emotions, I Wouldn't Have Given Them The Time Of Day!! Everybody Wears Masks, But The Greatest Act Of Courage Is To Be And Own All That You Are. Without apology. Witho...

12th grade 1978   So I've Heard That If You Can't Forgive and Forget, Pick One!! So I Chose To Forgive, But Forgetting Is Somewhat Difficult, As The Late Maya Angelou Said, I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel That is most certainly true.. Forgiveness is not about forgetting, it's about letting go of another's person throat.. It's a gift you give yourself. But it's always been easy for me to forgive a person because I didn't have to look in their faces everyday or they truly was sorry for what they did, but it gets difficult when the other individual don't seem to have any remorse or acting like they have done nothing.. And you watch them daily not saying a word.. True forgiveness is when you except an apology that you never got!! Some people will play on your emotions because they know that you care about them.. I just don't think you should ...

When I turned 40 yrs old (that was 13 years ago) just freshly out of a divorce, I want different!! So I promised myself that I wouldn't date anybody of "Color" Because in my mind and experience Black Men was taught to have this "I'm the Man of the House Mentality" its ok to wear the pants but just don't act like you are my father!! Because truly I want you to "Be the Man" Put me in my place when need be!! Slap me around a few times..lol lol (Just kidding about the last one don't even try that on  any day that ends in "Y") mmm hmm besides sending the Police you might wanna send an ambulance or the morgue..my fav line Sling blade..lol lol Just a few laughs to take me away from the seriousness of this topic. But during the time of Divorce Saga and how it played out, I wanted different, Its funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back Everything is different..When I told most of my friend that I crossed over for a wh...

No Matter How Good Of A Woman You Are, You Will Never Be Good Enough To A Man Who Isn't "Ready" How Deep is that? We don't really think about it while we are doing all we can to show our loyalty, trust, love, But once it is broken down to this level of thought, it make sense!! Sometimes we seek that which we are not yet ready to find.,When God knows you're ready for the responsibility of commitment, He'll reveal the right person under the right circumstances...Trust and Believe that!!

I woke up this morning singing God Praises, I wake up on Sunday Mornings just about the same routine I open all the blinds in the rooms I know I will be in, I put my Inspirational songs on plugged into another device so you can hear it all over the house, I have to start the morning with Isaac Carree, "Clean this house" Because I think we all need to be restored each and every day!! I was preparing to fix my breakfast, I couldn't decide what I wanted to eat, So I said I will fix some salmon grits and eggs.. As I was fixing the salmon, I am thinking about my mama Salmon, I just can't get it just like hers, no matter how many times I try. So I decided to put my own spin on it this time and I think if I tweak it enough I can get it to my taste. It hit me that we will never get it quite like Mama made it. It reminds me of how we search high and low for that woman or man in our life to be just like mama or just like my daddy, We need to re-create new memories, What if y...