"Just Being Me"

Have you ever met a person that appears to have the heart of stone?. You can ask them something and they never ever give you a straight answer. They never want you to know what they are thinking. You confide in them and you tell them your dreams and what you want, and they never react. I think that's being cold and callous. Is it past history that keeps us from keeping real with everybody? Or that if i do this they will take advanage of my feelings. Wow..What a concept. When we are at our jobs daily, we put on a front. We dont like everybody we work with but we put on face. well expected. But at the end of the day. Who tha hell are you? The hardest thing in life is to have words in your heart you can't utter. That happens to me more now than ever. Things keep me from saying what i want to say. You how you just want to walk up to a person and just say what you feel and let the chips fall where they may..  be it good or bad..Today I went on a limb(and i do that sometimes) a...

For we search last in the likeliest places. Robert Brault  said it best. I can say that If i knew what the likeliest place was i would have looked there first. What does brings happiness? But what i know fo"sho is that i dont want to pretend that I am happy, I dont want to pretend that i am in a relationship, nor pretend like i am in love. What a freakin waste of time. When you get a certain age, you feel like I am never going to be happy. But things make you say, Do i have to have somebody to be happy? Most people would rather be certain they're miserable, than risk being happy.People come in our lives for different reasons.I thought i was on the right road to happiness but i may have stumble..I cool with that..detours are a good thing.. But i do know what will make me happy for a while. Somebody to share my thoughts and ideas and just somebody who share by views, Its hard as hell to find a good few good men. I mean where do we find them at?. I found somebody t...

Such a true statement, But i want to be as happy as i can be. I am a very private person, I want to be loved with compassion. not too be love in your own way. where do they do that at? unacceptable. Just havent ran across that person yet.Do you have friends that drops over when they get ready? Well i dont, I very seldom have company.If the door bell ring, My son and I will look at each other and say who the heck is that? lol.We are a private family. It was one time that I gave a person a open invitation, they can come anytime it didnt matter the invitation never expires. They never used it, Will they ever? who knows. But its something that i offered because i know i would drop what i was doing just to tend to them. Where do they do that at? lol.... people are so selfish these days they only think about themselves. So its hard to pick a good man that will except you for who you are.  I have a best friend i see whenever we find the time to hook up like this past weekend, we just got ...

When you're with them,You meet And neither one of you Even know what hit 'em? Well I havent yet, But I want to know what that feels like. Have you ever liked somebody but they didnt return the favor? Once in my lifetime, so you know it was hard for me. i was so use to getting what i want when i wanted it. I didnt know the signs of rejections. but i found out. and as I think about it. I was wrong. Instead of me accepting the fact that i really was rejected, I decided to just see was i loosing my touch. some will call it acting out.  So i started flirting and as part of my nature i am good at what i do..I said all the things a man wanted to hear and more..but i got more than i bargain for. Dudes is breathing down my neck.Now i can't get rid of them. I can't tell them i was using them.. I just want to make sure everything was still in tact. But come to find out the reason i was rejected is because he dont like anyway. and i think i made it worse coming on to him. yea i fel...

People pretend to be a whole lot of things. What's wrong with being who you are? Why go thru life being something you know you aren't..Its like being a short story, pretending to be a novel.One thing I really hate is pretending to be in Love...Some folks will fake a whole relationship, We are so accustomed to disguise ourselves to others that in the end we become disguised to ourselves. .Why do we pretend to be happy? I mean h appiness and sadness run parallel to each other.  When one takes a rest, the other one tends to take up the slack Just be you. God has given you one face, and you make yourself another. ...

What I'm looking for is a blessing that's not in disguise.  Tall, handsome, sensitive, passionate, Does this exist or is this a myth to want all that's good. You know what i want? Someone who likes me first, for just who i am. when you see me, i just take your breath away. your heart stops when i pass by......ok I'm woke now...but it was a nice fantasy.. Men dont do that anymore. most of the time they just want the cookies. Thats why being single looks better everyday..But If i have offered my cookies to you. You got to be the hottest thing ever.If you reject my cookies that means i am only an options,,hmmmmm, i will pass i dont do options..I likes to keep it at a 100...always..i might need to tear down a few wall some folks got build up so high they can't see wuts waiting for them on the other sides...you missed your blessing.oooooooh

Today was one of those days where quietness sneaks in. During my walk this morning i notice that someone was quiet than she ususally are. I waited a minute to ask how she was doing and she have a long sigh. i knew something was troubling her but i waited till she was ready. She's unhappy how things are. granted she works hard because thats who she is. but when it go un notice, you ask the question Do people really care? No? not all of them. The world is full of willing people, some willing to work, the rest willing to let them..but when you dont get recognition for fear of others might think you are showing favortism that's just not even how that goes.  If i work hard and it shows i want them to know..hey this is what Karen do, and to show my appreciation this is what i am doing for her. When you have given nothing, ask for nothing. treat me as an individual. It shouldnt matter what the others think anyway. maybe they will wake up and start doing more...But you really can't...