One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter

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Have you ever met a person that appears to have the heart of stone?. You can ask them something and they never ever give you a straight answer. They never want you to know what they are thinking. You confide in them and you tell them your dreams and what you want, and they never react. I think that's being cold and callous. Is it past history that keeps us from keeping real with everybody? Or that if i do this they will take advanage of my feelings. Wow..What a concept. When we are at our jobs daily, we put on a front. We dont like everybody we work with but we put on face. well expected. But at the end of the day. Who tha hell are you? The hardest thing in life is to have words in your heart you can't utter. That happens to me more now than ever. Things keep me from saying what i want to say. You how you just want to walk up to a person and just say what you feel and let the chips fall where they may..  be it good or bad..Today I went on a limb(and i do that sometimes) and asked a loaded question. I didnt get the answer I expected but it was a done deal. I had to go with the answer that i recieved. I think I was looking for Yes or No with a reason why. and then I thought about where i was and they really didnt owe me either. I set myself up, and i think they didnt want to hurt my feelings. because they appear to be a nice person. They couldnt hurt my feelings they was already hurt before I asked. Be care who you pretend to be, because you are who you pretend to be...be careful how you throw your feeling out there..people dont even care. I really like this person but they are telling me not to..where do they do that at? lol lol but being 50 changed me. I think i act out more, or reverting back to my old ways..oh i can't have you, but i can have you and you and you..no i dont want them, i just want to see if i can get them. and now i can't shake em off.. I may need that distraction now..Its crazy out there yall.I think the things i cant utter dont need to be said...real talk..

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