"Just Being Me"

Well, you know..It wouldn't be a big deal if i didn't have to pass the isles in the store with the big red box of chocolates, or pull up a page on the web and the first thing you see is diamonds and pearls..So I decided to treat myself to the material things that I wanted and soon I forgot all about it. Dateless by choice. Which one is better, Just being with some one so you can say you had a date, or being alone..I could care less about what you think.Yes, I choose to be alone. I have never had a problem getting a man. But I have gotten to the point that any old man won't do..I am not striving for perfection. Just the one that God has chosen for me..Because idiots surrounds me, Make it idiot proof and someone will make a better idiot..I can be driven by my own vision or I'll be taken for a ride in someone Else's..Defined Dateless? having no date whatsoever. Oh well then that would be me..lol But do I really care? Not until I read a few blogs that said they have bee...

 Phenomenal woman Well that was the question I was asked  recently..Now that I am here, It's not that important to me anymore. When I decides to travel, It's for Fun only and to clear my head. I can't see myself traveling for love. if i just so happen to come across some Eye Candy that turns my head more than once..It will be worth the trip..So they say It's only 10% of good men left, ok but did they mean 10% world wide, or 10% per state? lol. good question Karen..I am on a lonely road and I am traveling, traveling looking for something, what can it be? hmmmmm, maybe a key to set me free..Sometimes getting away is the only option..You see I have these feelings all wrapped up in this nice neat package waiting to get out..The best feelings in your life come when you start feeling good after you've been feeling just awful. For the past few days or so, I have been feeling stomped on. I finally know where I stand in peoples lives.You know how you think y...

Or maybe I am saying that because I don't have a man at the moment, I don't think so. Valentine's Day like any other Holiday isn't what it use to be. I just may be getting older huh? One day my ex-husband bought me some roses. I put them in the living room. He told me later on that depending on where I placed them determined if I liked them or not. If I put them in the bedroom that means I love them .hmmmmmm. I didn't forget that, but he did catch on that I didn't care for roses or candy that much. because roses die, and candy will be eaten.  A card says a lot..I wanted something that will last. Something you can go back and look at, something that will have memories attached. I promise I just don't have anything that i can go back and  look at and say wow I remember this!!! Old dude gave me these..As I write this, I am still thinking about do I have something I can brag on right about now.,But certain things we just don't forget., When I do think about ...

I woke up this Morning decided to make some chicken stew, got the crock pot out and started the preparation, First it required an onion chopped in the bottom. as I was doing that my eyes had started to burn and i couldn't breath..leaving out the part about my allergies(lol).I had to back up to catch my breath..(I did rinse the onion like they say) but it was too much so i went to sit in another room to calm myself down..My imagination got the best of me.saying to myself. what if i can't breath what if i pass out? I got my grands here,I can't let that happen..after I came back to reality and washed my eyes and hands and went back to preparing my mind went back to how short life really is. It took me way back to the last three years of my life when I thought that the man in my life was the man that god had place there for the rest of my life. about halfway through the relationship, I started questioning God? I starting saying, God surely you didn't put this man in my life...

For every minute you are angry, you lose sixty seconds of happiness. Imagine being angry at someone since high school, You never resolved it and you havent moved on. and you havent forgave anybody. How miserable of a life that is? Forgiveness is always the right way to go.If you can't forgive and forget, pick one..It really doesn't matter if the person who hurt you deserves to be forgiven. Forgiveness is a gift you give yourself. You have things to do and you want to move on.. I have a grandson who is 14 yrs old, I havent seen him in a long time. Why? Well his mother decided that since she was angry with my son, we all shall suffer. Keep in mind that this happen while they was fresh out of high school, neither one hadn't had time to live thier lives but there is a baby on the way. But like every other man I know. You havent experience life yet so the first thing a man will do it go out and see what's out there. I know because it happen to me, I had my first child at 17....