"Just Being Me"

My mind tells me to give up, but my heart won't let me...Everybody knows that feeling right? Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, don't put up with those who are reckless with yours. You're meant to have whatever your heart desires. Whatever your heart wants that much is already a part of you. but The less you open your heart to others, the more your heart suffers. This we know is true.If your head tells you one thing and your heart tells you another, before you do anything, you should first decide whether you have a better head or a better heart..I took a deep breath and listened to the old bray of my heart. I am. I am. I am.

This past week, popular preacher, recording artist and pastor, Donnie McClurkin, went on record to declare his deep disappointment with what he sees as pastoral abuses in the body of Christ. His comments have raised a legitimate question about abuse and excesses in the body of Christ and has brought attention to a topic that has largely been ignored in the church community. In an article appearing in Essence this past week Pastor McClurkin is quoted as saying: "As pastors, we have to link arms and have bi-partisanships. The [Black] church has always been the face of the community. Now we have to take on the responsibility of becoming true servants to the people from all walks of life. I get so mad when I see these pimpin' preachers driving Rolls-Royces, Bentleys, flying around in their private jets, and making it seem like prosperity and money is the way of God when 90 percent of your congregation is on Section 8 or can't figure out how they are going to k...

This is one powerful statement, It goes thru me everytime i read it..Because we are always wanting things we can't have..but the things we have goes unnoticed.You have always fought against your dreams, and 'I want' has never even shown its face.  It was always drowned out by 'I must' or 'I hope' or 'I need.When you learn not to want things so badly, life comes to you.. This is one of those day where I am all over the place. My mind is stuck wondering How did i get to the point where everything i am doing I've outgrown. I have tryed a lot of things and the only thing that gave me that natural high was when i had by own business. I think I want to get back to that point..That would be a good start. I am single (by choice). so I dont have to have a second opinion.I must do me. Who don't want to be loved? I have not gotten to that point yet.. I have to get rid of the desires and wants that i have..m y mind wants to interpret All my dreams.My heart w...

When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves When you change the way you think, you will change the way you feel. When you change the way you feel, you will change the way you act. When you change the way you act, you will change the way you live. When you change the way you live, you will change your world ..Everyday we deal with people with different attitudes, some talk in a round about way, some who may or may not speak to you  for what ever reason.and then you have the ones who will lie on point. those are the career liars and then there are those who thinks the sun rises and sets with them in it...oooo la la...then you have the gossip trolls, remember this Whoever gossips to you will gossip about you...Its when you start finding out things about yourself that things begin to change for you. I really never cared what people think about me, nor will i ever. but only when my feelings get thrown under the bus and ran over do i start take...

You are not the roles that you play.But you do play them, and they do have real consequences.Why do we always have to stay in the same mode all the time. I see most people are stuck on image.always in that professional mode. They want people to look at them in the same way all the time. I am very sure you dont live that way, because at the end of the day, You are who you pretend to be. I think the older we get the worse we become. We miss out on a lot because we have set our standards so high.The quality of an individual is reflected in the standards they set for themselves..Some individuals have developed such strong internal standards that they no longer need the opinion of others to judge whether they have performed a task well or not..Its ok to have standards but not at a level where they cant be met. You notice how we pick a person apart because they dont meet that list you have. but that doesnt mean that's not the right person for you. Everybody wont be perfect."dont get...

  A mother always has to think twice, once for herself and once for her child. No matter how old they get, My 20 yr old decided to get on a plane and go New Jersery to see his girlfriend. Well that was a first for him and me. He wanted to do this alone. His first trip his father drove him up i was ok with that, But when he told me he wanted to fly alone my mind went to the another zone. First of all we never had a long distance relationship, we always dated someone from where we lived. but this was a first in the family..We never stop being a parent. I hear folk say, well he is grown, Well technically yes, But he is still my child. I am still trying to show him the right way to do things. The worse thing anybody body can give me is advice on how to be a parent and you dont have any children, there is nothing you will be able to tell me, all the books in the world still wont get you anywhere with me. That was the only thing I didnt like about Oprah when she had a show on children, o...

How important it is to like somebody? I've always wondered  if the people I like, likes me. I never ask them. But now at my age Why would I ask.  I've ask at least once. and that was because I heard they didnt. and the first thing that comes to our minds is Well, if they dont like me, I dont like them, Hmmmm that's just so elementary.. If a person dont like me I ask why? Just for GP . It isn't what you have, or who you are, or where you are, or what you are doing that makes you happy or unhappy. It is what you think about. For the last 3 weeks I have been Flirting like crazy, and i dont even really like some of the guys I flirt with..But at the end of the day, What exactly did I accomplish my leading them on? Well I can say this, Its getting me in more trouble..because at some point I will have to explain it....like is most important...fo'sho