"Just Being Me"

You are not the roles that you play.But you do play them, and they do have real consequences.Why do we always have to stay in the same mode all the time. I see most people are stuck on image.always in that professional mode. They want people to look at them in the same way all the time. I am very sure you dont live that way, because at the end of the day, You are who you pretend to be. I think the older we get the worse we become. We miss out on a lot because we have set our standards so high.The quality of an individual is reflected in the standards they set for themselves..Some individuals have developed such strong internal standards that they no longer need the opinion of others to judge whether they have performed a task well or not..Its ok to have standards but not at a level where they cant be met. You notice how we pick a person apart because they dont meet that list you have. but that doesnt mean that's not the right person for you. Everybody wont be perfect."dont get...

  A mother always has to think twice, once for herself and once for her child. No matter how old they get, My 20 yr old decided to get on a plane and go New Jersery to see his girlfriend. Well that was a first for him and me. He wanted to do this alone. His first trip his father drove him up i was ok with that, But when he told me he wanted to fly alone my mind went to the another zone. First of all we never had a long distance relationship, we always dated someone from where we lived. but this was a first in the family..We never stop being a parent. I hear folk say, well he is grown, Well technically yes, But he is still my child. I am still trying to show him the right way to do things. The worse thing anybody body can give me is advice on how to be a parent and you dont have any children, there is nothing you will be able to tell me, all the books in the world still wont get you anywhere with me. That was the only thing I didnt like about Oprah when she had a show on children, o...

How important it is to like somebody? I've always wondered  if the people I like, likes me. I never ask them. But now at my age Why would I ask.  I've ask at least once. and that was because I heard they didnt. and the first thing that comes to our minds is Well, if they dont like me, I dont like them, Hmmmm that's just so elementary.. If a person dont like me I ask why? Just for GP . It isn't what you have, or who you are, or where you are, or what you are doing that makes you happy or unhappy. It is what you think about. For the last 3 weeks I have been Flirting like crazy, and i dont even really like some of the guys I flirt with..But at the end of the day, What exactly did I accomplish my leading them on? Well I can say this, Its getting me in more trouble..because at some point I will have to explain it....like is most important...fo'sho

Have you ever met a person that appears to have the heart of stone?. You can ask them something and they never ever give you a straight answer. They never want you to know what they are thinking. You confide in them and you tell them your dreams and what you want, and they never react. I think that's being cold and callous. Is it past history that keeps us from keeping real with everybody? Or that if i do this they will take advanage of my feelings. Wow..What a concept. When we are at our jobs daily, we put on a front. We dont like everybody we work with but we put on face. well expected. But at the end of the day. Who tha hell are you? The hardest thing in life is to have words in your heart you can't utter. That happens to me more now than ever. Things keep me from saying what i want to say. You how you just want to walk up to a person and just say what you feel and let the chips fall where they may..  be it good or bad..Today I went on a limb(and i do that sometimes) a...

For we search last in the likeliest places. Robert Brault  said it best. I can say that If i knew what the likeliest place was i would have looked there first. What does brings happiness? But what i know fo"sho is that i dont want to pretend that I am happy, I dont want to pretend that i am in a relationship, nor pretend like i am in love. What a freakin waste of time. When you get a certain age, you feel like I am never going to be happy. But things make you say, Do i have to have somebody to be happy? Most people would rather be certain they're miserable, than risk being happy.People come in our lives for different reasons.I thought i was on the right road to happiness but i may have stumble..I cool with that..detours are a good thing.. But i do know what will make me happy for a while. Somebody to share my thoughts and ideas and just somebody who share by views, Its hard as hell to find a good few good men. I mean where do we find them at?. I found somebody t...

Such a true statement, But i want to be as happy as i can be. I am a very private person, I want to be loved with compassion. not too be love in your own way. where do they do that at? unacceptable. Just havent ran across that person yet.Do you have friends that drops over when they get ready? Well i dont, I very seldom have company.If the door bell ring, My son and I will look at each other and say who the heck is that? lol.We are a private family. It was one time that I gave a person a open invitation, they can come anytime it didnt matter the invitation never expires. They never used it, Will they ever? who knows. But its something that i offered because i know i would drop what i was doing just to tend to them. Where do they do that at? lol.... people are so selfish these days they only think about themselves. So its hard to pick a good man that will except you for who you are.  I have a best friend i see whenever we find the time to hook up like this past weekend, we just got ...

When you're with them,You meet And neither one of you Even know what hit 'em? Well I havent yet, But I want to know what that feels like. Have you ever liked somebody but they didnt return the favor? Once in my lifetime, so you know it was hard for me. i was so use to getting what i want when i wanted it. I didnt know the signs of rejections. but i found out. and as I think about it. I was wrong. Instead of me accepting the fact that i really was rejected, I decided to just see was i loosing my touch. some will call it acting out.  So i started flirting and as part of my nature i am good at what i do..I said all the things a man wanted to hear and more..but i got more than i bargain for. Dudes is breathing down my neck.Now i can't get rid of them. I can't tell them i was using them.. I just want to make sure everything was still in tact. But come to find out the reason i was rejected is because he dont like anyway. and i think i made it worse coming on to him. yea i fel...