"Just Being Me"

Don't be fooled by me. Don't be fooled by the face I wear. For I wear a thousand masks, masks that I am afraid to take off and none of them are me. Pretending is an art that's second nature with me, but don't be fooled. For God's sake don't be fooled. I give the impression that I am secure, that all is sunny and unruffled with me, within as well as without, that confidence is my name and coolness my game; that the waters are calm and I am in command, and that I need no one. But don't believe me, please. My surface may seem smooth, but my surface is my mask, ever-varying and ever-concealing 'Neath this lies no complacence. Beneath dwells the real me in confusion, in fear, and aloneness. But I hide this. I don't want anybody to know. I panic at the thought of my weakness and fear of being exposed. That is why I frantically create a mask to hide behind; a nonchalant, sophisticated facade, to help me pretend, to shield me from the glance that knows. But ...

I heard this morning on the radio that Knowledge of the Truth will set you free..The most powerful statement I have heard in a long time. How do anybody spend almost their whole lives with secrets? Nothing makes us so lonely as our secrets.. God offers to every mind its choice between truth and repose.  Take which you please - you can never have both.. oh but the power of prayer.If you are confused as to where you need to be or what path you need to take. You need to pray about it. God  knows our heart, but how do you expect him to answer your prayers when you haven't told him what you want. You have to talk to God.The truth will set you free, but first it will make you miserable.Prayer does not change God, but it changes him who prays. I know  back in the day, Our parents kept real secrects that we knew nothing of. and they say it was to protect us. I think it hurt us, this is why i refuse to keep secrects from my children. I was a grown woman when i found out ...

My sister sent me this song on f/book and it took me way back in time, you can listen to it in one of the links below.I can remember the times when if a man was jealous you knew it..It was honest and true.that was when a man was really in love with you. when he punched a dude out..But now, It's a lot of pretending going on..First thing they say, Oh no I am not a jealous man, but that's just to protect them. because they think if she know I am jealous she will use it against me, lawd. so they rather keep it all bottle up inside and next thing you know somebody is seriously hurt or dead..because you have let this jealousy build up and made you crazy, Why? Why not just say I am Jealous so don't do this or that. and that got that. Of couse men are not the only one women keeps that hidden..remember the song..Thin line between love and hate..hmmmmm instead of saying stop staying out all night and coming home when you get ready, then one day he gets home she have put him in the ho...

The one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person..Why is that? It always happens that way. You are in a relationshsip and you don't love them, you love the other person..About all you can do in life is be who you are. Some people will love you for you. Most will love you for what you can do for them, and some won't like you at all. been there and done that..I want you to always make decisions according to your heart, where there is the purest truth. I don't mutter the words "I love you" if I dont really love you. but The hardest thing to do is watch someone you loves, love someone else...but you notice life still goes on. Life brings you exactly what you need .you never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back. A friend of mine, almost always ends the conversation with I love you. But I gave you more than enough chances to say that as often as possible when we were together. now that we are apart. you throwing it around like its no...