"Just Being Me"

Age is a number which puts us in chronological order of time.  Age does not have to dictate how old we feel or act.I do not feel any age yet. There is no age to the spirit. I am sitting here in my Kitchen looking out the window, not looking at anything in particular.. the birds, ducks leaves falling, my 5 yr old granddaughter reminded me to look at the leaves changing colors.  While i was sitting in the chair, I am aware that 3 other chairs is empty. I thought back when one was not empty a friend use to sit there. It crosses my mind everytime i sit there, that how is it two people can be so different. I mean our lives took off in a whole other direction.what a difference 30 yrs makes. I had known him when i was in my twenties, we broke up and never to look back untill 3 yrs ago i called him up..thinking that we can catch up and pick up where we left off. but people change and so the thier way of living. He had a head full of gray hair..he didnt look hi...

Can you relate to that statement? Is it true? I most def can't relate to people with millions. Can I relate to the poor? Yes I can, even though at the time I didnt no the definition of poor, I was too young to know that we was scaping the bottom of the barrel. Yea there was some who had more food, better clothes, We ate free lunch, back then that was being poor. How do you think i felt when i heard somebody say, my mama gave your mama that dress for you to wear. I hate because i can remember the tinest little details of every inch of my life..Can i relate to people with millions? No!! never had anything remotely close to a million. People with millions only hang with people with millions or more. They never go outside thier cirlce of friends.  So how do you expect to be friends..You have to already have been friends before you can get to that stage.Does equal means financially? or does it means Physically, emotionally, really its hard to tell what it means or how you ente...

My mind tells me to give up, but my heart won't let me...Everybody knows that feeling right? Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, don't put up with those who are reckless with yours. You're meant to have whatever your heart desires. Whatever your heart wants that much is already a part of you. but The less you open your heart to others, the more your heart suffers. This we know is true.If your head tells you one thing and your heart tells you another, before you do anything, you should first decide whether you have a better head or a better heart..I took a deep breath and listened to the old bray of my heart. I am. I am. I am.

This past week, popular preacher, recording artist and pastor, Donnie McClurkin, went on record to declare his deep disappointment with what he sees as pastoral abuses in the body of Christ. His comments have raised a legitimate question about abuse and excesses in the body of Christ and has brought attention to a topic that has largely been ignored in the church community. In an article appearing in Essence this past week Pastor McClurkin is quoted as saying: "As pastors, we have to link arms and have bi-partisanships. The [Black] church has always been the face of the community. Now we have to take on the responsibility of becoming true servants to the people from all walks of life. I get so mad when I see these pimpin' preachers driving Rolls-Royces, Bentleys, flying around in their private jets, and making it seem like prosperity and money is the way of God when 90 percent of your congregation is on Section 8 or can't figure out how they are going to k...

This is one powerful statement, It goes thru me everytime i read it..Because we are always wanting things we can't have..but the things we have goes unnoticed.You have always fought against your dreams, and 'I want' has never even shown its face.  It was always drowned out by 'I must' or 'I hope' or 'I need.When you learn not to want things so badly, life comes to you.. This is one of those day where I am all over the place. My mind is stuck wondering How did i get to the point where everything i am doing I've outgrown. I have tryed a lot of things and the only thing that gave me that natural high was when i had by own business. I think I want to get back to that point..That would be a good start. I am single (by choice). so I dont have to have a second opinion.I must do me. Who don't want to be loved? I have not gotten to that point yet.. I have to get rid of the desires and wants that i have..m y mind wants to interpret All my dreams.My heart w...

When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves When you change the way you think, you will change the way you feel. When you change the way you feel, you will change the way you act. When you change the way you act, you will change the way you live. When you change the way you live, you will change your world ..Everyday we deal with people with different attitudes, some talk in a round about way, some who may or may not speak to you  for what ever reason.and then you have the ones who will lie on point. those are the career liars and then there are those who thinks the sun rises and sets with them in it...oooo la la...then you have the gossip trolls, remember this Whoever gossips to you will gossip about you...Its when you start finding out things about yourself that things begin to change for you. I really never cared what people think about me, nor will i ever. but only when my feelings get thrown under the bus and ran over do i start take...

You are not the roles that you play.But you do play them, and they do have real consequences.Why do we always have to stay in the same mode all the time. I see most people are stuck on image.always in that professional mode. They want people to look at them in the same way all the time. I am very sure you dont live that way, because at the end of the day, You are who you pretend to be. I think the older we get the worse we become. We miss out on a lot because we have set our standards so high.The quality of an individual is reflected in the standards they set for themselves..Some individuals have developed such strong internal standards that they no longer need the opinion of others to judge whether they have performed a task well or not..Its ok to have standards but not at a level where they cant be met. You notice how we pick a person apart because they dont meet that list you have. but that doesnt mean that's not the right person for you. Everybody wont be perfect."dont get...