Am I Dreaming? Gods Church or The Devils Chapel...

Where God has his churches, the Devil has his chapels..So it seems I must have been dreaming, Forget about the life you have created for yourself since you were old enough to know what you wanted to do with your life, because 99.9% of the time it's not going as plan. We are taken down this dark road of "Why am I here" is this a lesson? should I have gone left? I must have went right to the Devils chapel. We don't know it's the Devils chapel. for the moment we have that selective vision and hearing.but does the devil know he is a devil?..hmmmmmm, or maybe I am dreaming and I am really in Gods church...Wow, I am so overwhelmed, because they both kinda seems alike, God said we will go through trials and tribulations."God never promised that we wouldn’t have challenges. In fact, He said just the opposite. His word says, ‘Be truly glad!...these trials are only to test your faith, to see whether or not it is strong and pure…’ so if your faith remains strong after being tried in the test tube of fiery trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day of His return. So during those bad times I guess we have all visited and revisited the devils chapels...and some of you are still visiting but got denial written on ya backs.(lol)..I never had my life planed out like other people. I once said when I was younger that I wanted to be a nurse, but found out I was afraid of hospitals.So I stop planning and went with what ever life had for me, when I got out of high school I had no plans on going to college, I just up and went 8 years after I graduated..I just can't see where I planned anything..I did say that marriage was not for me, because I saw what it did to us growing up. but I did get married and for the same reason got divorced.I had strict rules after that.To find out 10 yrs later you went and did what you said you wouldn't do..all because I got lonely..another 3 yrs and I am back to doing me, still had the same rules..until I fell in love, Me? Karen? No no no..How could you fall in love with a person you really don't know nothing about? but know of..but the dreams I am having has made him out to be the match for me..kind, sensitive, all the qualities a woman want in a man...again, did I make him up? He's not perfect, we all have flaws..But in our dreams he can be whatever I want him to be, but is he real? He's Real  but he doesnt know me..he knows of me..Reality of it all," My Feelings are Real"..No I didn't really change, I just got tired of pretending..What is it that we all believe in that we cannot see or hear or feel or taste or smell - this invisible thing that heals all sorrows, reveals all lies and renews all hope?  What is it that has always been and always will be, from whose bosom we all came and to which we will all return?  Most call it Time.  A few realize that it is God...Thanks RB..