Real Recognise Real And I Call It Like I see It....Second Fiddle..

Do You ever get tired of playing second fiddle to everything, Are you the woman that always have to take a back seat to everything? No matter if you are in a relationship with a man with kids married with step kids and ex wives, or His career comes first and when he's done you can't start your life..or wait till things get better to do this or that. B.S. is what it is called..The reason lightning doesn't strike twice in the same place is that the same place isn't there the second time... There is no second place when it comes to my life. I use to sit back and wait for people to make up thier minds about everything.. I put my education on hold while I raised two boys all on my own, while thier father went on got his education degrees. i went on and got married years later to a man that had an ex with kids..I took at back seat while the drama unfolded while he feels guilty for leaving them so he would make up for it and just bankrupt our household. Its crazy the shyt we will do all in the name of love..Once i was divorced i was single for a while that way first was mandotory. Then 10 yrs later i hook up with somebody whose world was different because they didnt want to move up with time..You can't teach an old dog new tricks..but yea all in the name of love we try..By that time he just didnt think he could go any further, and i was exhausted(relationship shouldnt be that damn hard anyway) He said "I don't think I want to be in a relationship no mo..mind u he's 65..and i said well let me just help you out with that..neither do I, this is not how this is done..But he didnt think it would go that far, he didnt think i would say what i did..but yes. I can love you and leave you all at the same time..because a peace of mind is worth it....from this day forward..Karen is First Place Trophy Woman Life is too short for me to be waiting on you to make up your mind what you want out of life, if you dont know now, you aint going to know. he says i want you back, the only reason i said that was to get you to change your way of thinking, I told him there is no way i am changing because i live in 2010 not 1978., you either move with the times or stay ya azz right there, and if you run across somebody who will meet you in those days i am happy for you. I was only trying to teach him somethin about LIFE..you know coming where I'm from.I might have given him a second chance if I was IN love with him. but i loved him enough to call it like i see it..But those days are gone...If I am in love with someone that means I liked you as the person you are first. and if you don't feel the same, one would hope and pray that the feeling would subside if denied.and keep it movin. i can't rewind this enough, You can't make nobody want you or love you. either they do or they don't..I can't play second..I want to be treated like I am first..and if you are looking for me,,I will be behind door #1
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