"Just Being Me"

Just because you think you found the right person for you, doesn’t always mean that they feel you are the right person for them. That’s the challenge and the risk of opening up to someone, allowing yourself to become comfortable, even fall in love. And then one can ask and question, “I’m here, but you’re not? Where did you go left & I went right?” You can’t dial down feelings and we can’t turn back time. We can hope, even pray, that these intense feelings, desires & passions for that person, will subside if denied. That the ache in the heart will go away, that it will be filled with some other feeling, other than the love & happiness it once possessed. And then there’s the fear. The fear that if you close that door, that you will never allow it be reopened, even for that ‘imperfect’ perfect person, shall they discover that you are the one later in time. So you say to yourself, “Ok, I know the circumstances, I know they will never change, no matter how sincere the words.” So...

When I ask you to listen to me and you start giving me advice, You have not done what I asked. When I ask you to listen to me And you begin to tell me why I shouldn’t feel that way, You are trampling on my feelings When I ask you to listen to me And you begin to tell me why I shouldn’t feel that way, You have failed me, as strange as that may seem. All I asked was that you listen, not talk or do – just listen to me. Talk is cheap: 50 cents will get you both Dear Abby and Billy Graham in the same newspaper And I can do for myself: I am not helpless, Maybe discouraged and faltering, but not helpless. When you do something for me that I can and need to do for myself, You contribute to my fear and weakness. But, when you accept as a simple fact that I do feel what I feel, No matter how irrational, then I can quit trying to And get about the business of Understanding what is behind this irrational feeling. And when that is clear, the answers are obvious And I don’t need advice. Irration...

You know I consider myself as a really nice person and get along with everybody. I treat people way better than they treat me. I give credit where credit is due.I may give some a little bit more attention than i give others, But that's just who I am. If i am physically attracted to you then I am more likely to give you more of my attention and you might be the one that soak up all my energy. but like everything else, that gets old too. Don't expect others to treat you better than they treat themselves.  If you choose to deal with them (or must), it is best to come from a place of compassion toward their ignorance and lack of love.  Be solid enough to deal with it or step back to work on yourself first..How other's treat me is their path ~ how I respond is mine.I just refuse to be ignored, some people treat you as if you are not there.They talk in a round about way.( and that's something I hate with a passion) Most of them never ever say what's really on their minds ...

Taking one foot and putting it in front of the other, that is the only way to travel forward...If however you take steps forward whilst looking backward; well -then you will fall over because you end up tripping over something you would easily have seen if looking where you were going in the first place. So, when looking back just stay still for a moment, allow yourself to reflect, but then you must at some point turn around and just keep moving - or you will stagnant on the spot which means going nowhere at all.I try not to ever look back because when you do, you'll go right back..Whether you want it to or not, life goes on.. We spend too much time dwelling on the possibilty that things may get better if we just do this.or that. I am just tired of doing the same old things. same routine, same everything. I need something different, I need some changes somewhere. At some point even flirting gets old..It's just attention without intentions...OR IS IT?.We miss our blessings...

Why should I care what other people think of me? I am who I am. And who I wanna be...Who I'm not makes me who I am.I am good to people who are good.I am also good to people who are not good. Because Virtue is goodness. If I Really Cared. Who you are would be more important to me than who I am.  Where you hurt would be more important than that I'm well.  What you feel would be more important than what I know. I'd look you in the eyes when you talk to me; I'd think about what you're saying rather than what I'm going to say next, I'd hear your feelings as well as your words.  I'd listen without defending. I'd hear without deciding whether you are right or wrong. I'd ask you why and how, not just when and where.  I'd laugh with you but not at you I'd talk with you and not to you, and I'd know when it's time to do neither.  I wouldn't climb over your walls.  I'd wait until you let me in the gate.  I wouldn't unlock your sec...